I've spent the past four days gaining back those seven pounds. Apparently, I had already forgotten what agony it was to lose them.

It started out with a Progress celebration that got a little out of hand. Those extra calories (which weren't even that much extra) discouraged me. The next day, Jeremy talked me into going with him to our favorite restaurant where I somewhat successfully divided my portions with the family, but I was left guessing the numbers on what I'd actually eaten. I let that discourage me, too. Then my entire busy weekend kept me from logging onto SparkPeople - my main catalyst for continuing.

On Monday, Jeremy encouraged me, "Just forget about trying to record what you did this weekend, and start today." But I couldn't let it go. My own perfectionist tendencies kicked in and wouldn't let me move on until I had recorded perfectly what I couldn't perfectly recall or even guess. I stayed stuck.

This morning, before I even got out of bed, I asked God to help me out of this hole I'd planted myself in. I'd been using my own faulty logic and my own sporadic strength. It wasn't working. I was ready to move on.

While I put away the breakfast dishes, this verse popped into my mind. "Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus."

Starting today, I have amnesia. The good kind.

And you know what else? This morning, I realized that my new lower-sized jeans still fit, albeit barely. So maybe I haven't gained it all back!
4 Responses
  1. Suanna Says:

    Just keep going. You can do it. It's like the story The Little Engine that Could. I know you can do it, but you do may have some uphill moments. I think I can, I think I can, I think I can.

  2. PJ Says:

    Next time let's try celebrating with something other than food, it's a hard habit to break but a good one to try.... and a great one to pass down to the kids. I believe in you!!!!

  3. Que Says:

    So what was it you were talking about. I seem to have forgotten it. You probably should too. As long as you are alive, today is far more important than all of the yesterdays put together.

  4. Anonymous Says:

    How awesome that God's forgiveness (and forgetting) are even for the little things. My rearview mirror only sees the victories!

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