The one thing I HATE the most.

I'm okay with going through rough times; give me a goal, and I can hunker down through anything. But throw some trouble my way, don't give me a clue as to when, where or how it will end, and don't include any instructions for the meantime, and you'll have a Missy-mess on your hands.

Several major troubles have hit at once, and a smaller one happened last night. Jeremy called me at three in the morning to tell me that his truck had broken down! He slept in it until 7AM when I came to rescue him. Today, I am laughing at it all. I even counted out how many things have happened in the last five days. Seven problems, and I'm not talking about little things, have jumped on us in the last five days. It really is amusing if you stop to think about it.

On Monday, I thought back to my contentment post and wondered if God was preparing me then for all of this. I know absolutely for sure that He is still in control, that He is not surprised, that He is doing what is THE BEST for me and my family. So I'm not really all that worried about anything.

I'm just resentful that I have to go through it.

Yesterday afternoon, Liberty was hungry. As I stood at the kitchen counter in a small beam of sunlight and mixed her rice cereal, she sat behind me and loudly let me know that she was unhappy with the timing of her meal. I heard myself saying over my shoulder to her, "Hold on a minute, Baby Girl, I'm making something wonderful for you, but it's going to take a little time. You don't really want me to rush it and give you lumpy cereal, now do you?"

And it hit me.

That is what I'm doing with God. I am trusting Him to give me something good, but I'm not trusting Him to do it in His time. I am begging for lumpy cereal, just so I can have it NOW, rather than letting Him take the time to make something wonderful for me.

Psalm 5:3 In the morning, LORD, you hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait expectantly.

Psalm 38:15 LORD, I wait for you; you will answer, Lord my God.

Psalm 27:14 Wait for the LORD; be strong, take heart and wait for the LORD.

So here I am...
3 Responses
  1. Rayla Says:

    Your post was inspiring. I'm also going through something where the end is unknown.

  2. Kristin Says:


    I just wanted to let you know that your posts about God and things that happen are so incredibly true. Usually I nod my head and agree, having been there, but today you helped me to see that what’s happening to you is exactly what’s happening to me!!!

    I’ve been having a couple ongoing issues that seem to go away, but then come back and I get frustrated because I don’t know how to deal with it except to trust God. I know He knows best, I know everything happens for a reason, but sometimes I just get wrapped up in it, I forget. I forget He has control, not me or other things/people. I forget that He has a purpose for this, not just to frustrate me or make me a mess! And I need to open my eyes and realize it’s all in His plan for my life to make me a better person.

    Thanks for the eye-opener and wake-up call!

    Love ya,


    PS: and I do hope God resolves your problem soon, as long as it’s on HIS calendar!

  3. Anonymous Says:

    amen! my heart exactly!

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